Jeff, wearing a diaper is not all that bad. I'd weight the pros and cons do you want to wake up after a nights sleep in a wet diaper or do you want to wake up in a wet bed, furthermore i'd think that you would like to have dry pants for a change eh? just get used to wearing the diaper and you will be fine, it is not the end of the world. hey at least no one can easily notice your diaper unless it is wet and you give off a smell of urine, this is not as bad as possibly getting braces on your teeth where everyone can see them or having to wear eye glasses or a hearing aid those everyone can see right away! please be assured you are not alone in this everything will be ok. i wish i could be diaper free but it is not going to happen i wear mine 24-7. a diaper is just a bit of a adjustment we have to live with.