hugggggggsssssssss to you......im so sorry sweetie.. I know what your going through my b/f whom i adore has stomach cancer and it isnt easy huh. My opinion is the heck with them all you have a very good reason for having to wear diapers and i know you are not enjoying them..Keep you chin up sweeite even though its almost impossiable at times im sure and dont let them make you feel bad it is thier ignorance that is shinning though and you show yourself a better person for being able to cope..Its a really hard thing to deal with. My b/f has had it since he was 17..God knows how he hangs on there.You take care now..