Jay, I am going to make this as short as possible while trying to answer your questions. I like you guys and and also like for you to be informed. Goodnites go to youth sized for 125lbs only. Luvs has a SleepDry, but where I am in midwest, I do not see them marketed. They also stop at 125lbs I understand. Depends cost about 75-80 cents per diaper in an adult size, but there you have to be large enough to fill it out with a waist size at least 28" and your weight ll0lbs and up from there. As I understand it, Attends no longer is marketed at this level. There is a TENA diaper which is pretty good, but you have to find them by phone locally or surf around the net. Besides, they would be around $1.25-1.30 per diaper which understandably might be a little expensive to handle. the TENA would have to be in a small adult size or medium if one is large framed. They do not have a youth size per se. Now, to go on, I do not know how the TENA would perform(I have no experience to go on). I doubt if the Depends would be a great soaker anyway. You would have a diaper on but who knows?. But now lets cut to the chase. I fail to understand how you can go on night-to-night and to not tell your parents. They could help you I believe. Besides, you will not be able to keep it a secret and you will need assistance and advice at sometime ahead Any delay is not worth the aggrivation(don't you agree?)Some closing afterthoughts are these. On buying diapers, you need youth sizes. You might be better with pull-on briefs or pull-on diapers. You MAY also need plastic pants. All depends upon your specific conditions. There seems to be alot of leaking diapers these days, though some guys(and gals) get by. Youth stuff is found on the internet, and you need to know your way around that community....and then be able to purchase and to get exactly what you need. You nixed cloth in your post, but could be your best route all aound. One last thing, on buying diapers at the store if you found them, you need not be self-conscious. You could be buying them in place of your mother for your "little sister" The clerk doesn't care, nobody cares except and unless the clerk happens to be in your class at school or one of your buddies says "Hi Jay, what's up" You can get out of the neighborhood to buy, go to different store, or tell them the facts that your having a problem. This is getting too long, so I am checking out. Good luck and take care!...mr.j