Yo. Looks like your problem is not with what you are seeing, but what you AREN'T seeing. Life sucks. Get over it. I have a pretty cruddy and isolated life, but, and I could choose to either sit and feel bad for myself, or try my best to make things better, or at least look better. It's YOU'RE life, not ours. If you want it to improve (if you are not an imposter), YOU are the only one who can make that decision. You can be part of the problem, or part of the solution. Right now, you are part of the problem! So stop feeling so %#*^(*&^$'n bad for yourself and get a life!